Most of you know that i recently quite my very good corporate job to stay at home with my daughter, and go back to school full time to become a teacher. But most of you do not know, just how amazing of a journey it has been for me.
The decision has actually took sometime to come around. I will start at the beginning. It actually goes back to before I was pregnant. I was in Bayard, IA and not in a great place in my life. I knew I wanted to go back to school, but knew that I had some healing to do as well. I did go up to the Carroll DMACC campus and dreamed a bit though, and that is when I first found out about the UNI 2+2 program. At that time the Carroll campus was the only campus that offered it. Well like I said, I knew it was not the time and a few months later, I was pregnant, and had no idea what I was going to do.
I moved back to Des Moines with family and started working at a local restaurant right away, knowing that I was going to need some money to raise my child. Then when I was 6 months pregnant I got the job at INS. It was a good job and I was able to provide for my daughter, so I stayed. I loved it there, and I still do. I was also pretty good at what I did and learned SOOOO much about telephony in the last four years. I still say if I was going to go corporate, that is where I would want to be. But none the less this was not my hearts desire. To be honest, I had forgotten over the last few years what that dream was.
So now we will fast forward to a year ago. I could not resist any longer, I knew I needed to be back at school. So I enrolled at DMACC for one course, Creative Writing. It was GREAT! BUT, I could not stand being away from Eliza even one night a week. I just was too much after being away from her all day every day. This was also the time that a sisterfriend of mine was telling me about the UNI 2+2 that was now being offered in the Des Moines area. I guess that ever other year in Jan they start. Odd years only. So it was JAN09 that the next cohort would start. Well, knowing that I could not be away from Eliza anymore I dismissed it.
Last December I would say was when my thoughts were rocked and I was forced to question and reevaluate my life. I realize that although INS was a great job, it was not my life. God is my provider not them, and he can provide for me in other ways. So I started praying for him to show me a way. A way to stay at home with my daughter and be the mom he called me to be, before a career woman. We wrestled all the rest of the winter, right on into spring about different ways that I could supplement income to be able to stay at home with Eliza.
Then one Sunday, a Christian brother of mine was giving a testimony. He talked about stepping out in faith before we see the road clearly. Then I went that afternoon to see Narnia, where I was reminded to keep my eyes on Jesus. He is always there, and it is his battle to fight, not mine. Talk about a powerful Sunday. I felt the spirit all around me and I could not silence it (like who would want to right). The next morning I awoke VERY early and it was confirmed that I would quit my job in August and do in home daycare. (which was not my first choice)
I was sure that this was the most stupid thing I had ever done. (that could be easily argued) But as it was said that Sunday, I needed to step out before the bridge would appear. So in June I took classes and studied up on how to be a registered in home provider. I do not think I got excited about it until late in June. Still was not sure this is what I should be doing.
School did not actually enter the picture until after the fourth of July. That is when I was reminded of my dream, and reminded there was the program starting in 2009. J God is so good. Just as he promised, once I stepped out in faith, he revealed himself to me. Love that Lord I serve!
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