As i was cleaning out above my refrigerator today, I found an almost full pack of cigarettes. I opened the lid to smell them, thinking it might be nice. On the contrary, they smelled awful!!! And not just a stale smell, it was a normal cigarette smell. All i could think was, OH PRAISE GOD!!!!!
After 50+ attempts at quitting, and wanting to quit for about eight years, i was finally fully released from this addiction. There have been times over the last year plus, that i thought, "Hmm, i think i want a cigarette", but it is always followed by the reminder of these things:
1. They were making me sick, literally.
2. I can run now, when i couldn't before.
3. It is one less thing for me to worry about.
4. I think it stinks now, and considering I always carried a body spray with me, I think I always did.
5. Lord willing, I quit soon enough to allow myself more years with my daughter and other loved one.
What a nice reminder this was for me today. Just when I start getting hard on myself about my lack of discipline, I am given a visual of just how much the Lord has been healing me from the inside out.
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