I hear ya...

so there are those moments in our life when it feels as though God is whispering. we are searching for an answer to a question and it seems that there is no answer in sight. well yesterday was not one of those days for me.

it was more of a "if you build it, they will come" kind of day . the thing with those kinds of days is that:
1. what are you supposed to build, and why?
2. how are you suppsed to build it, and why?
3. what will happen once it is built....and why? :)

i suppose this is where you have to put faith into action, and just build it.

a peaceful walk....

so i am sitting here at my computer, enjoying this lovely spring evening, and it is interupted by the sounds of sirens coming closer and closer. Finally, now sounding like they are right out side of my home, the sirens come to an abrupt stop. i look around and see nothing. no action at all.
this sort of thing seems to be very common in this neighborhood. honestly the block itself is very quiet, serene and rather 'leave it to beaver" like. But we are only one block away from a main road, that connects to a highway. So chaos is just around the corner.
it kind of reminds me of what walking with Christ is like in a way. inside myself i feel safe, secure, serene, but when i look and listen around me, the world is not really like that at all. it is chaos. thank the Lord for his peace.

vertigo....

it has started again. the light headed, almost passing out. the doctor says that it is a case of vertigo that is brought on by an infection in the lower ear that is probably being caused by allergies.
last year was the first time in my life that allergies ever presented themselves as a problem, so i am not sure how to deal with them. i am very sensitive to medicines also, so it is hard to find something that releaves my symptoms without bringing about other ailments.
i am not sure how i feel about this whole allergies thing....

a garden....

i am actually quite a big fan of gray days. to me they are so soothing. But this year, for some reason this nice weather is just getting me. i try my best to get out in it as much as possible. now to assist in these efforts, I have decided to plant a garden. Just some landscaping. I have ordered some hydrangeas, hostas, viola rebecca's and some lavendar. we will have to wait and see how i do with these before i invest anymore.

go jenni....

this morning i was invited to attend a women's tea (yes, I went to a women's tea???), but i went because a girl name jenni was graduating from the Hope family ministries single mom's program. A year and a half ago i was lucky enough to be a part of decorating her room. It was really exciting to me because at the time i was a young mom, on my own, (still am)and if it wasn't for me having a great family, i knew that i would have probably been in a similar situation. i feel that it is important to have a place all to yourself to run and escape to. A place of comfort. Well today she told my mother and i that her room was her sanctuary. And then i got to hear her tell of her story. i had never heard it before. It was great. I pray that she will continue to look to the Lord for guidance. It is the clearest thing i have found....

kids these days....

i am sitting here telling my three old daughter why she does not need a usb flash drive. crazy right. i think what is even more crazy is that she has some idea of what i am talking about....